Advanced Directive
In recent days I have found myself becomming [sic] less and less in control of my concentration, largely due to my constant (and increasing) breathing problems. Therefore, I want to write these thoughts and instructions down now - while I still have the free capacity to do so.
First of all, I want it known that I am truly prepared to accept death - and in some ways am even looking forward to it - but I want to be spared all the pain and suffering that is possible. Like us all, I want a peaceful and painless death - one that is not prolonged but rather (in my particular case), if anything - welcomed.
I do not want to be "kept alive" (whatever the circumstances) because I am convinced that my illness is indeed terminal and any life that lies ahead for me will be nothing but a variation of the misery I am presently experiencing. At present I cannot imagine myself being alive for more than another month or two. It just doesn't feel that way, "deep inside," and this inability to breath with any form of comfort is slowly driving me mad. I hate being witness to my own deterioration each day.
Naturally I would prefer dieing in my own bed, surrounded by my own little world of tapes, T.V., music, but I realize this may be impossible. If I must be in the hospital, however, it should mainly be to make my death more comfortable - not simply to prolong it. If any prescribed treatment simply means stretching out my death rather than bringing me a comfortable, painless release from the miseries of this life, I don't want it. The sooner and less painfully my life ends, the better.
I understand that this written statement can server as a sort of living will, and that if I don't want treatment when I am terminally ill or permanently unconscious, this becomes what is referred to as a NATURAL DEATH ACT DECLARATION. In signing this Declaration, I acknowledge that I do not want any kind of life-prolonging treatment, including artificially supplied food and fluids, but that I definitely do want any treatment or medication that will make me comfortable and prevent further pain.
My two older sisters, PATSY BANKS of Newton, Iowa and BILLIE SNYDER of McKinleyville, Calif. are aware of my wishes and are fully authorized to guide them forward accordingly should I be unable to do so.
Ronald Hogue 9/9/94
Witnessed:
David Hadley 9-9-94
Brad McAllen 9-9-94